Weekend in Trondheim and by coincidence, this is also the last weekend of Raffaele and Laila up here, in my apartment, before they move tomorrow to a completely new life in Brasil.
Many years Raffaele lived in my place up here. Soon after moving to Trondheim, Raffa spent a night on the sofa here, then he moved in and we have been house-mates until I moved to Oslo in 2004.. and from then before alone next with Laila he too a great care of this important place in Trondheim.
Now I see they have prepared almost all their boxes and stuff for moving and I feel the end of something.. I feel a bit sad.. both for me and the place! I have already contact with a possible good person moving in, but still how Raffa & Laila have been treating the place leaves only special and important memories to me.
As passage rite I bought quite a lot of the furniture they got during these years and they left me as presents more.. and I am quite happy that their “spirit” will remain in this place as well as a more concrete image of their life here.
From Monday, in Brasil, a complete new life will start for them, and in some way I envy them for being able to move quite fast to this new step of their life. I am still struggling between my goals (yes, no more talking about dreams, they are goals now!) and my loyalties. OK, for Raffa has been easier since it is his Norwegian company sending him there, while I am searching a complete new career in the East, since my company has no contacts there. The need to bring the project I started with this work in Stavanger to the proper end (first months in 2010) is rooted in me as the thought that this project is an important part of my professional career. Unfortunately every day in Stavanger is a pain, straight from my heart to my mind. A pain I can heal only moving, only when my dreams will become true. A balance between this pain and my professional loyalties is what I am seeking and struggling for. And still seeing my friend leaving, pushes me forward. A new phase stars for them. Soon a new phase will start for me as well. Not forgetting the past (OK, I want to forget the reason of the pain, and I need distance, since time is not helping), accepting the future.
Good luck Raffa! Good luck Laila!
I hope we will keep contact even if we are going to be half world and more apart.. and I hope they will not forget this place, my place in Trondheim! My place will not forget them!!!