BPPV: not a Minion language happy birthday!

7 07 2018

Yesterday it was my birthday, 46 years spent around this funny world and I was supposed to be in Italy for celebrating the wedding of a special friend Valentina and her partner, Ivano..

But I had not taken into consideration my typical bad luck: Monday I experienced some weird vertigo and dizziness that got worse on Tuesday (a day home from work, first time since China and before that maybe happened at university) nd on Wednesday when I managed to get to hospital, I got diagnosed by a full set of neurologist to suffer from BPPV, Benign paroxysmal positional vertigo, a disorder arising from a problem in the inner ear.

Yeah, something new in my life… that I could really happily avoid!

This disease is most common in women and at an age of 49 or older, it can be related to head blows, but 50% of the time is idiopathic. Guess in which category I fall?

The result is that basically every time I move the head my brain lose balance information and I feel like falling: I walk (and feel in my head) like a drunk man, without having been drinking though.. cheap hangover way, right?

The interesting part of this disease is that there is no medical treatment but there are maneuvers to be performed in order to solve the problem:

…where only the first one should be repeated for about 2 weeks in order to solve the problem. OK, guess again what I have been recommended to do? Of course the first one, because apparently the other 2 are too technical (!) for doing it at home alone. But,, still apparently, the other 2 should lead to a faster solution of the problem..

Anyway, baby steps. I feel better than Wednesday, better then Thursday when I had my first walk outside to test a little myself and then I felt like sh*t the rest of the day, and I had to decide to not travel to Italy to Vale & Ivano’s wedding.. and then I felt worse than sh*t.. still feeling (the wedding was a few hours go, the celebration now.. my heart and head are really heavy..).

Friday I decided to celebrate anyway my birthday with a sushi lunch (and a cake) and especially buying myself a new lens for my camera, a prime lens f/1.4 50 mm (and actually a used camera as well, but this will come later and have all her space).. and then I got a surprise by a very nice friend who did give me lots of Minions and a fantastic Aikido t-shirt:

And not only this, but I have been promised too a monkey present (before minions I was a monkey aficionados… Don’t ask!):

I cannot complain too much about my birthday day itself. The walk also was less destructive than the day before.

Baby steps, not only when physically walking but also mentally in my expectations of recovery.

Of course it’s not possible to practice Aikido and that is another aspect I have to control, mentally.

The thing that scares me the most about BPPV is that there is not assurance when (and if) it will disappear and if it will come back, and when. Actually it’s very probable it will come back..

Not so different again from my previous arthritis problem, but one was enough: I’m greedy, but not about diseases!!

Getting older for once should force me to be wiser and respect the baby steps approach.

Funny enough this vertigo feeling is keeping me away from alcohol: I really wish I could not feel this drunk!!

Ever, I mean it!!!





1 year anniversary 

25 10 2016

Exactly one year ago I moved to Amsterdam after about two years in Utrecht. 

last step of the move: my first beloved bike (stolen after less than 2 months 😭)


No regrets at all, I should have maybe done it before even!

Morning in Amsterdam

It helped that the company I work got also moved here but since I had already chosen the place for the love of my life, Aikido, I would have moved anyway… eventually… 

I’m just a tiny bit sad that friends who visited me when I was in Utrecht have not been back now that I moved. A few did come back, and saw I also managed to learn some of what this city can offer.. still hope someone else will also come back for a weekend of exploration of the beauty of Amsterdam. 





中秋节快乐!

15 09 2016

Or in other words, happy moon cake festival (mid-autumn, yeah ok) 

outrageous expensive but I love moon cakes!


And the moon is up there shining even in a little cloudy Amsterdam sky:

the moon over my home

Another good moon for others good memories…

moon and memories… all great now






One more down, keep counting..

6 07 2016

..let’s see how many more..


(thx Dani for this one)


(thx Tor Magnus, this is me.. us..)





My baby is home

22 05 2016

After 6 years and a couple of months I could hold again my baby, and it gave me goosebumps:

my dragonfly iaito


For some time we lost contact and even she seemed lost, but then my dear friend Bob found the case and other bits of my Iaido past:

scabbards and iaito kit


Holding her in my hands was fantastic and I can only dream the time I can “dance” with her again… It requires some good weather for going outside.. therefore, being in the Netherlands, lots of prayers!

But she is home, and that is important!





Bicycle diet

22 03 2016

A few months since last I managed to breach the 75 kg limit, and I am not that happy this time, since last night for the first time ever I had to stop Aikido practice 5 minutes before the very end, completely depleted by energies!

It is true it was a class rich of black belts and we threw each other quite strongly, and the last repetitions we were only 3 “standing”, but I regret having to bow out because totally empty.

Biking to work and practice is all together about 12 km (and 4 more to go home after, but that is not a problem, I can take it extremely slowly) and I have to remember to drink much more water because I do not have yet the proper condition.

<75 kg.. what a sweat though!

Anyway, it was nice to see it possible to descend again below the 75 kg threshold. I must try to work again on my abs as ** had shown me before, in order to get rid of my “baby fat” as well 😉

When in Vietnam I have been eating and practicing a lot, and thanks to the very hot weather (liters of sweat!) I managed to maintain my weight around normal values, to everybody surprise!! 🙂





Biking in the storm

4 03 2016

First real Amsterdam Dutch weather rain bike experience since moved here: freezing big rain drops falling into my eyes, finding the entrance over the space of the glasses, anyway covered in water and becoming foggy at every change of slope (minimal but still there).

Biking in the storm

Biking in the storm

Exactly what I was hoping to not happen: tonight I will leave to Vietnam, directed to Ho Chi Minh city, where the  weather is reasonably different and I do not want to wear any heavy clothes/shoes.. not for the short trip from home to Schiphol!

But the freezing rain this morning (and the fact that my cheap “summer” shoes have some holes into the soles) might change my mind about the clothing choice for the trip to the airport!

These are the Netherlands though: I can try to cross the finger and hope really really really strong in some weather changes before tonight!! Even though the cloudy sky is not a good omen!!

(btw, right now it is .. snowing!!)